Tuesday, September 21, 2004

Desperate Hope vs. The Immovable Object

Have you ever longed for something so much -- even something that means work and sacrifice -- that it's all you can do to function in your daily life without obsessively thinking about it? And maybe there's just one stupid, seemingly insurmountable factor in your way. One lousy thing between you and the fulfillment of this dream that you're certain will be joyous and worthwhile and possibly lifechanging. And you spend moments of contemplation squeezing every last creative solution out of your mind in an attempt to get around that one obstacle...still, nothing you can do to change things. Have you ever experienced that?

Indescribable, the level of frustration I am feeling right now. What could be keeping the last piece of the puzzle from falling into place?

The months crawl by, and despite my best efforts, I'm still bound by circumstance. Somewhere out there, he is waiting for me to make a place for him in my life.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

It was a toss-up for me whether the link would lead to a darling puppy or Orlando Bloom. In both cases there is indeed a great obstacle. But I must say upon reflection that you are more likely to find a new job than have the restraining order removed, so best to focus on that.

Amy